I have not blogged in so long.
I guess...I feel guilty when I dont have anything profound to write. I feel like I should be writing encouraging thoughts, scripture, musings...when really, I am just getting by.

I am still unemployed and it still royally sucks. It is going on two months now, and I am struggling so much. People keep asking me if I have a job yet and then when I say no they say things like "well, you just have to keep trusting God!! He has a job for you!" But really, sometimes that does not encourage me, because I feel like my having a job is conditional on whether or not I trust God enough. I am trying. I pray about it. I cry out about it. Sometimes I have peace. But really, more often than not, I fail at trusting. So I just keep searching. And hopefully I will find a job soon, because every day I broaden the search criteria to encompass another field. It went from a bunch of specific administrative and writing jobs to sending a whole bunch of resumes to Early Childhood Education programs. Go figure.

In other news, Allen and I got a pet last weekend. He is a baby (2-3 month old) albino rabbit (white with pink eyes). We picked him up at an antique market in Potter County and named him Doug Bunnie. Hehehe. He is currently hopping the perimeter of my living room and dining room, nibbling on whatever he finds on the floor. He also poops on everything. I have taken to holding him in a blanket so to collect the piles of poop. I'll post a picture when I feel like loading them.

This summer's girls Bible study is about over, but I am looking forward to possibly beginning a fall one for the first time. I love teaching and leading a small group. It helps me so much.

Allen is taking me to see Jodi Picoult speak for my 22nd birthday, which is in a little over two weeks. I am so excited. Allen is far less excited as this would put him in nerd levels beyond anything he has ever known. The things my husband does for me :-) I love him.

Now off to eat my nutritious lunch of some Lean Cuisine Off-brand sweedish meatballs and Kashi Harvest Cheddar Crackers (my new favorite snack!!)

Peace out.

Your love is...strong

I have not written in a while.
I wish that I had news to report but I don't. The job front is not looking promising at the moment. And I am not handling it well. Thankfully, I have my wonderful husband who won't let me fall, my friends who encourage me and mentors who pray for me. And a God who will never leave me.
I wish I could remember that more often.
I wish I didn't feel so sad. I wish I could stop crying. I wasn't so upset with myself.
I don't want to turn this post into something where I list all the reasons I am upset...just please pray if you read this because I am struggling.

Instead I will post some encouragement I have received:

Diane led me to look up this song:
Heavenly Father, you always amaze me
Let your kingdom come in my world and in my life
You give me the food I need to live through the day
And forgive me as I forgive the people that wronged me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one

I look out the window the birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune or out of place
I look at the meadow and stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl on her wedding day

So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

Allen and I at Martha's vineyard.
Our God made that sunset...